Rambling...If you were in my head you would understand...

Sometimes I think of you...

Sometimes you think of me...I can only hope...

Was life meant to be this hard...
But then again what good in life isn't hard to achieve...

Peace of mind...
Heartache...
Love...

I can't help but think...
remember...
wish...
hurt...
wonder...


CRY!!!


But just so you know...
I still think of you...
I still dream big for you...
I still....

I miss the friend I had in you....

To the friend I miss....

To the time I never spent telling you how I feel.....
To the time I wish I would of spent with you....
To the heartache this love or infatuation has caused....
To the wasted time I can't seem to stop spending on the thought of you....
To all this ... I regret!!!

To the man you are.....
To the man you shall become....
To the guy I miss....
To the guy I can't seem to let go....
To all this ... I hurt!!!

I know I will never act on these feelings....
the what ifs...
the thoughts....
the regrets....
they will never fully just go away.....
To all this ... I wish!!!

I have so many questions....
But the one that is so pressing is ....
Will I ever go a year without wishing to see you....
to talk to you...to hold a conversation with a person and not think of you...
Will I ever go a year without missing your voice.....The talks we had were a saving grace...
To all this ... I am!!!


You were there at a time of need....
you were a friend that I will always see....
You....
To all this ... I live!!!

To ALL of this....
the need...
the love....
the care...
the hurt....
the regret.....
I owe to you .... for if you had seen ALL of this.....
I would not love the man I am married to.....